I’m having a hard time lately with myself. I feel really convicted and called to bring my friends out to this event on Wednesday, they all know that I’m with Occupy and I’m definitely the “radical” of the group. But lately my roommate and I have been spending a lot of time talking about how we can personally take it upon ourselves to create the student movement we have been dreaming of. It’s up to us to do what we were waiting for other people to do.
Why are my friends so afraid to step out of their comfort zones and just stand up for what you believe in? Isn’t that what we were all taught as pre-teens at some point? That we should stick to our morales and fight to defend what makes us, us? The school is impeding on the ability for us to be us with these program cuts and tuition hikes. People’s entire majors are getting wiped out of the school. Their entire career needs to change for them to stay at Columbia. That is fucking awful. But unfortunately the risk of being asked to leave a building is too much to ask.
I really desperately want my friends to come out and help fight this not only because we need the numbers, but because it applies to them and they should take a personal responsibility to help. I have personally explained the problems going on at Columbia to most of them and they are all very concerned and know people very directly that will be effected by it, yet as soon as I say a date and time they shy away and make excuses to why they can’t go. I feel like I’m the super religious person that keeps inviting everybody to church. And honestly, as much as I believe in this cause and hope for change, it kind of has been a little for me.
I’ve found hope in Occupy. It provides me with a realistic and achievable vision for the future that is a better and more idealistic place. It gives me something to hold on to and to get passionate about. I really desperately want to share this with my friends while at the same time creating this world that I’ve envisioned. Yet, literally all of the feelings that I’m describing could be applied to any major religion. I’m really not sure if that’s awful or healthy or not.